老婆我爱你。

我做的事都会让你生气，伤心。是我不够贴心，不够关心才会导致这一切的。不知你为何生气，只是一直在向你道歉。 你朋友们都会说你不是搬出去一起住了吗？还会吵架？

承诺呢？好像一直被我抛弃了。说好要给你幸福的，幸福呢？你快乐吗？跟你在一起的每一秒，我都很快乐，很幸福。真希望我们能永远都这样子，配在彼此的身边永不分开。

或许我给你的感觉是不认真的吧？我可是很认真地对待我们俩的事。你所生气的每一件事我多看在心里。所说过的事，我都会听。我已经不知道我在你心目中是怎样的一个人了。是言而无信的她呢？还是你还在意还爱的那个她？

不论我在你心目中是哪一个，我还是爱你的。你永远都是我最爱的人。老婆我爱你。

Deardear.. I miss you very much.. I think i'm becoming more and more like a superglue to you ler.. Sometime I wonder whether I'm a burden to you.. Now I understand why you say you're a burden to me everytime you want to break up with me..

Deardear i really miss you very much.. Hope you can come back and be by my side as soon as possible..

Sometimes I really don't wish that you don't have to go home on weekends.. But I know you still have your family to care about.. Even though you say they are not important to you.. But I can see how much you care about them..

Even though they are furious about what you did.. Think about it.. If they don't care about you, why will they even bother to scold you? Not everyone is like me de dear.. Let you scold.. Let you vent your anger at.. After all the scolding, still can joke with you..

Seeing you have to rush here and there.. Really hurt me... You may think that whatever you do I don't care... Even though you say I'm always busy with work.. Work is more important than you.. Geneieve is someone I can click with or what people at work is people I can click with.. So I should have my lunch with them..

I can tell you this.. GENEIEVE IS SHIT TO ME! For goodness sake.. I don't know what gave you the thought we can click well.. She's so fake.. Thinking she's rich and everything.. I only talk to her because I have to.. Because of the work...

Enough of geneieve's crap.. I don't like to see or hear her name.. She's the stupid person that we everytime got argument when I don't even know why she's the argument subject.. I just want to be with you..

You're so much important to me... So much so I moved out.. Thinking that I should earn more, so that we can have our house in the future.. I want to be the one to support you to futher your passion in music..

I miss you so much.. I really don't know how life would be without you by my side.. I really hope your family won't force you to do things you don't like.. I just hope that you can still have your family when you're with me.. I really want you to be the most happy person in the world when you're with me..

老婆我真的很爱你。不想让你离开我。我真的好想让你幸福。

Been wondering whether I should let you suffer with me like this... Maybe I should just let you go so that you won't have to suffer so much with me... I would rather suffer alone than let you suffer so much with me..

Deardear I really love you so much.. I really don't want to see you suffer so much with me..

Happy Valentine Day and 5th anniversay dear..

Been thinking of you for the past 2 days when you're not with me... Even though I moved out.. There are still things that I've done that hurt you.. Be it unintentionally anot..

If you think that by keeping your thoughts so that they won't be used against you.. Then do what you deem.. I won't prompt anymore.. So long as you're happy.. I will always be here for you whenever you want to talk about them or you want to voice them out..

I know I lied to you regarding the trip down to VC on fri.. I won't denied that I did went down... I won't blame it on you that you're are piss about it or you will keep getting it out to set example for future.. It is my fault..

I still hopes that I can bring you happiness.. Hopes that you will be smiling everytime you sees me... Which I think will be a difficult task for me to reach ba? As I would still in the end upset you by my work.. Just hoping things will get better ba.. And not worse...

Dear.. I Love You very much..

I know you want to be with me together for yesterday night cause of this stupid festive which cause us not able to see each other for 3 bloody long days.. Which means I have to act "guai" at home in turns not to get beaten by my dad...

Tried to not wake up in the morning.. In the end got beaten to wake up to go with them.. Can't stay up much late de me.. Argh.. Why are we having arguments everytime we are separated? I can't be trusted by you cause I'm always listening to them when I'm home.. Doing what they ask everytime and not spending much time with you when I'm home...

Don't know what I can do to make you believe.. Why do I start to feel that I'm not the one for you... FUCK ALL THIS LAH! I just want to be with you all the time.. YET ALL THESE CRAPS COME HAUNTING ME AGAIN! Screw them!

Whenever I have problems, you're the one who's there for me.. Yet when you have problems, the person who's there for you are your friends and cousins.. For I can't help out much.. Moving out on 11 Feb.. I have already told them.. They are fine with it.. Whatever they want to do.. I don't give a damn anymore..

Sometimes I wonder how come I'm so good at keeping other people's problem and secrets yet I can't keep mine.. All I want is to share everything with you... Not having to keep things from you.. All I have ever done is to hurt you even more... I really would like to know when was the time I really makes u happy...

I think my death will be the best to put all these to an end.. For everyone will not have to think of me that much already.. I know you want to spend time with me.. I'm THE ONE WHO GIVES EMPTY PROMISES, a LIAR! ME! I'm the ONE! Noone will ever believe what I say anymore... NOONE!

I really don't know what to do already. Everything I does seems to be wrong. All I've done is to make you more hurt. I know you don't like to rush yet I keep demanding you to do things you don't like to do. My work and my tiredness has always been a problem to our relationship.

If I know you would be in such agony now, I should have let you go the last time. If I know I would treat you so unwell. Didn't except myself to do that but I already did. Hurt you so much yet I don't know what I can do to redeem myself. "我不要烦你了" this line has a very strong impact on me. It's has though you are saying that you wanna break up with me already.

Every night we will end up quarreling on phone and hope that tomorrow I won't sleep on you again But yet I DID! Can't tolerate myself for doing this to you everyday yet I can't do anything to keep myself awake. I'm really am a useless person. If anyone read this blog, I think that they will think I'm not qualified to be in love ba? I think it's true ba.

Everyday you only see me for the most max 4 hours.. Yet when you want to talk to me on phone I fell asleep on you.. I understand how you feels thus whenever you fell asleep I do nothing cause I want to know how it feels to you when I did that.. When I know I can't help to blame myself for being useless..

I love you more than anything else. But because of my workload, it causes you more agony.. I think i will have to change job ba.. If I really becomes a Perm.. I will be loaded with more responsibilites.. By then, I think you will be more angry with me or hates me even more than now ba?

Deardear you're my everything now.. Even now at home, my house has already become a place where I just come home to sleep and nobody cares for me except you..

Can't wait to move out and stay with you. ^^ I'm glad to have you. Thanks for staying by my side dear. Thanks for giving me all the support. I'm sorry that I've caused you so much pain and torture you so much.

Just hope that I can treat you much better when we move out. ^^ I love you very much dear.

Happy 4th month anniversary dear.. ^^

I don't know what to say.. But just hope I can get my passport and then move out of the house. I don't wish to see you in tears anymore. Everytime I see you in tears I really don't know what to do..

What should I do to stop the tears from falling down your face?

All of it my fault

All of these nonsense that I've put you through is all my fault thus, don't you blame yourself for them. It's not that I'm always annoyed with you. Is just that everytime you blame yourself for whatever that's my fault, I feel angry with myself for having to cause you all these troubles..

I really don't know what I've to do to make you happy. Everytime you're angry/sad about my stuff, I really am at a loss. >.< Sigh. I will have to go and get busy first. Today Vinda's not in. Just hope dear won't get annoyed with all these matters.

T_T I miss dear so much ar... T_T I can't wait for you to come back.. I want to be with you.. -tear- I miss you so much.. I want you~

I don't want you to go to Hong Kong tomorrow.. I want you to be with me.. Just now had a chat with my mum.. Kind of settle the thing with her.. She asked lots of questions..

Well.. Sort of went well I think.. But this is the best I can do so far.. I will still try for the chalet.. Cause if they don't allow.. I will most probably tell them I don't want to hold chalet when mine comes.. See what can they do..

Can't stand them anymore.. How I wish I can move out.. But I don't want my grandma to worry.. Since young, she's the only one who dote my sis and I the most.. We won't want to hurt her.. Well.. Actually I did.. =X Haha..

Like what my mum say.. I actually want to be with you than cares about her feelings.. Ya I do.. Cause they are not the one who can give me happiness.. Argh.. Don't talk about them.. Just make my blood boils..

Deardear.. I know you don't really like me to "sort of burden" myself.. But.. To me.. What I'm doing is our future.. If you really don't want me to do it.. Then I don't do it noh...

Deardear must take care of yourself okay? I know it's hard to enjoy yourself with your mum there.. But try to ba.. I love you and I miss you lots deardear.. I will still message you when I'm up and out to work.. Will let you know when I'm home.. I love you dear.. Can't bear to let you go...

I love you my dear.. 我爱你! ^^

Every night stayed up to accompany you but in the end I fell asleep.. What sort of accompany is this? I know that.. And I'm really sorry about it... Every night the same thing happen.. I really don't know what to do.. Everytime you get angry and cry.. I'm lost and the only thing I could do is apologise...

You say you don't want my apology.. You don't tell me what you want I don't know what to do.. Haiz.. Everything is not an illusion my dear... Even if you want it to be an illusion I will not...

This whole week can say I was with dear everyday except today... Dear is having a concert next sunday.. Which I can't attend... Hope everything goes well.. I want to be able to attend dear's performance.. But I can't... -Sigh-

I really don't know why.. Okay well.. It is my fault that I should go and sleep instead of accompany you when I still fell asleep... The only time I can pei you when you're online is in game and msn? How I wish you don't have to go back home... But well, you still have your piano lessons to attend...

Another 14 days it's gonna be our 3rd month together... This time round we can't celebrate cause it will on a sunday... -sigh- And it's gonna be a day before your school term starts.. Gonna see less and less of dear already I think... Lesson from 8 to 6?

I miss you very much dear.. I love you more than anything.. I want you to be with me all the time.. It hurts me more than anything to see you get piss and trying to hurt yourself... You're my everything already.. I love you dear..

Well well.. Didn't post much this week.. =X Hmm... This week really didn't manage to pei dear much seh... Cause dear have to study etc plus my parents not at home.. Stupid de... -Sigh-
I made dear cried like don't know how many times already seh.. I want to make her happy every day but... -Sigh-

Was so damn tired this week seh.. Everytime when I lie on my bed within 10mins I will knock out already.. Don't know what happen... -Sigh- Dear cried on wed.. One thing is cause of me.. Another thing is cause of xdo which she can't play for almost this whole week.. Plus there's always somethings that people screwed up that needs her to resolve... -Sigh-

Next week dear will have paper on monday, tuesday, thursday and saturday.. So I'm gonna go over to her place after work the whole of next week.. ^^ Lalalaa~ Guys stop imagine things already... -.- Especially Haseo and Cookie.. =P Maybe I will bring my laptop over ba? Haha.. Lalalaa~ -Sing- See how ba...

I just wanna be with you all the time, never to part but I can't... I'm such a useless person... Can't make you smile when you're moody or sad for just a sec... Can't wipe your tears when you crying... I wanna hold you in my arms all the time.. Wanna give you warm when you're cold... Don't know what I can do for you to make you happy.. All I can say is I love you very much dear.. I will never let go off your hand~ Muacks~

-Sigh- My mum is going to follow my dad to genting this week.. Cause my stupid bro is going.. Imagine my dad goes to genting and goes gambling with his colleague... Then my bro will be left alone... Zzz..

I've to take care of the house during these days then.. =( Which means I will have less time to meet up with dear... =( -Sigh- I don't want~ Argh.. At the thought of washing the mountains of clothes... T_T Wed I can afford to be home late cause sis will be home.. But thurs and fri she will be home late... T_T Plus Tues I have to come home early cause of that stupid flash! ARGH! I'm PISSED!

I want my deardear na~ =( Argh! Dear will be here for the whole week yet I can't be with her for the whole week?! Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz............. IRRIATING SEH! Haiz.. I go out ler lah.. Post later..

2nd month anniversary

Hehe.. Yesterday was our 2nd month anniversary... Went over to her place in the morning... Went out for lunch around 1pm.. Then had Sakae Teppanyaki.. @_@ First time try.. Haha.. Dear got so hook up by the chef that she say she want to try cooking the garlic rice? LOL! Kawaii deardear -hug-

After lunch, we went for movie.. LOL! Watched the Coffin.. 2 scary cat watching horror movie.. HAHA! =X Then never mind... During the movie, dear was frighten by her phone cause... Just when the scary part is coming.. Tiff smsed her... =.=| HAHA! U imagine you watching horror movie then suddenly your hp is vibrating in ur pants? =X

Then went to EMax.. At 1st want to watch another show de.. But since no room then we got the 2 pc room.. Wanted to try out playing from thumbdrive but can't.. Haiz.. In the end, spamming forum and msn? LOL! After that went for dinner.. XD

Then went to Esprit.. Tried out some clothes... Then send dear home? Hehe.. Bought a couple watch.. XD Though knowing dear don't like to wear watch.. (>.<) Hehe..

Hope dear you enjoy yesterday.. Happy 2nd month anniversary.. XD I love you dear.. ^^

I miss you badly dear... I want to be with you.. Sometimes I really hope that if you don't have to go back to JB. (>.<) Can't wait for friday to come... Don't know where should we go neh... (>.<) I'm a very lousy planner man.. =X

Lately been sneezing like nobody business.. And today had a terrible headache.. And because of that I have to take a few hours off early... =.=| Then walked in the rain seh... Pray won't be down with illness.. But doubt so...

Don't know why recently am so sleepy seh... Once on bed almost instant knock out noh... @_@ Just now played Cabal @ Lan shop... Haha! So long never play already seh.. (>.<) Not bad seh.. I still can remember all the shortcut keys.. HAHA!

LOL! I don't know what to post seh... (>.<) THink will stop here ba... HAHA!
I miss you dear... Can't wait to see you tomorrow! Tomorrow faster come~ I love you dear~

Wee.. I've been eating dear's homemade obento.. XD Yesterday lunch was fried rice.. =D Today lunch was pasta.. =D Wee.. Both of them are great.. And I CLEARED them all... Hehe... ^^ But everytime is I eat alone... Then dear watch me eat... (>.<)

She went back home today after accompanying me for lunch... =( Then since she reached home jiu play xdo till now? -sigh- And I only managed to accompany her for like about 1 and a half hour? Have to off cause of my damn dad who came home.. Irritating idiot...

Everytime I have to leave, you will show me a sad face but yet you can't stop me from leaving... I don't know what I can do to stop hurting you cause of my dad/family members... I just hope you won't get strain because of this...

I also don't want you to get tired because you have to cook for me.. If you don't know what to cook, can don't cook/just cook what you know can ler.. I don't mind de.. So long as it's done by you, I will finish them up... -muacks- I don't know lah.. I seriously feels that you already are strained...

I don't know what I can do for you... I'm really am a BAKA.. I'm not good with words... Don't know what should I say when you say something to me... Don't know what to do... And I'm so afraid you might tear again... I just wanna hold on tight to you... But I'm afraid too tight you might run away from me... -lost-

Everytime you say "anything lor", it makes me sad.. Because I know what you mean and what you want... Yet I can't do anything about it... And if I'm tired and I still force myself, you'll confirm be pissed with me for sure... Yet I can't bear to leave you...

Everytime you say "I don't know what I can do", it makes my heart ache... I love you so much dear... I worries for you just like you worries for me... Whenever you say that, my heart really ache... It's just like when you cry, I can't be there to wipe off your tears for you and hug you tightly in my arms...

Well.. I don't know what else can I say already.. I just to let you know that I really miss you and I really really love you alot dear... I can't wait till thurs to see you...

37 more hours to go....